Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Temper, temper

Sometimes my temper gets the better of me... so I resolve to change it from this day forward...

my affirmation..
I am patient, I am patient, I am patient
I understand that not everything is under my control, I understand that there are things I cannot change.

I claim my patience now...

I am calm, level headed and patient.
I am calm, level headed and patient.

I have everything I need and everything I want.

God is good all the time and He is my provider and He has provided me with a patient and loving heart to understand everything and everyone around me. Thank you Lord =)

Tuesday, April 23, 2013


I am happy, I am gorgeous, I'm perfect!!!
BELIEVE! Something good is about to happen.
I feel the change coming...I feel it in my bones...
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Tuesday, February 19, 2013

When Depression Takes Over

I admit it, once or twice I would succumb to the lure of just letting it all go and crying my eyeballs out or just shouting out to the world to release all stresses and even entertaining the notion of ending my own life, but those are just moments of weaknesses, moments when everything just seems to toll so heavily on me and I find myself succumbing to the weakness simply because there is no other way to release the stress lest I do want it to boil down to me just finally ending it all...

I will say that it is but human to cry, get frustrated and all those but what is important that I have learned to jump back in the water after I have released all the pent up energy I keep just below the water so to speak, I am not arrogant enough to say that I can carry it all, no, I can't and I am weak and I give in, if I will only rely on myself, I am slowly learning to lean on a higher being, learning to take stock of everything and just begin to rely more on God and the truth that He wants to take care of me and prosper me and everything they have been telling... I know God is there... is here and is willing to help me get through all my troubles....

Monday, February 11, 2013

Problem Overwhelming?

I heard from a friend that another friend, although not so close to me, had taken her life...

I was so saddened by this, not exactly because of the lost life, I barely knew her, if I would be completely honest but because, she felt she had to end her life to end her problems...

It never really occurred to me to end my life because of my problems, yes, I would, say that I want to die or something to that effect when I feel like my problems overwhelm but I never take that seriously, never thought to actually do it... so it is sad for me to realize that indeed some people deem it necessary to kill themselves in order to get away from their problems...

Life is so precious... I pray that one day people who face overwhelming problems will realize that taking their lives is not the answer, that they can turn to God, and see their problems solved if only they will have faith, if only they will believe that God is here, willing to help, willing to prosper, willing to heal... we need only ask...

Positivity entails believing, having faith and keeping that faith no matter what..


No matter how difficult the situation may be, keep in mind that God is all powerful and HE IS ABLE!

Friday, February 8, 2013

Continue Being Grateful

Gratitude is not an easy attitude to adapt.

Sometimes our pride gets in the way of being thankful, thinking that everything we have, we owe to no one, well perhaps because we do work hard to attain them.

But if there's one thing I learned is that, nothing we ever have is owed only to us. Keep in mind that there is a higher being that allows us the life we breath each day we keep our eyes open, and beginning with that, we should begin to be thankful and realize that we owe everything to a higher being other than ourselves.

Regardless of what your beliefs might be, we all acknowledge that there is an eternal God that sustains the life we have, so in that sense, we should realize that everything we do, we owe to that one eternal God.  And thus each day we should learn to thank Him for everything we are enjoying.

Be thankful that...

you have food on the table and you eat 3 or even more times a day, others doesn't eat at all...

you have a roof over your head, others live in tents while others yet sleep on the cold pavement...

you are healthy and are able to work and do all that needs to be done each day...

you have people who love you, others have been forgotten by their family

you are in front of the computer, learning and discovering.. being able to enjoy technology while others don't even have electricity....

Learn to be grateful each day and you will soon learn there are more to be grateful for, for a grateful heart is a blessed heart and a blessed heart is open to all other blessings to flow in...

Monday, January 28, 2013


Yes, at the heart of every positive thought is the belief that everything will be alright, that after all these, you will see the light of a new tomorrow. You will finally be free from whatever ails you. You have to believe if not, then everything else is mundane.

My heart is not set right at the moment. I fear, I worry, I anguish. I want to be able to think completely positive and keep this negative thoughts at bay, yes it is not easy, I will have to admit, but there is a part of me that believes that this is possible, that I can find myself at the pinnacle of success if only I try hard enough.

I don't want to end up a nothing simply because my faith was not enough or that I didn't believe in it enough. I know God has a good plan for me and I know that God will make a way even if I can't see how I can do it, I do believe that God will answer my desperate cry for help. I JUST KNOW GOD IS HERE, AND IS LISTENING...So I should just leave my worries to yesterday and face today and tomorrow with a smile because GOD helps and HE helps EVERYONE who seeks HIM

My prayer...

God, I pray that I learn to lean on You for everything, from the day to day stuff to the most important and significant matters and problems I'm facing right now. I know that often I feel so overwhelmed by the duties that I face each day and I get stressed and worried that everything will come crumbling down, teach me to humbly accept your gracious hand and allow me to live life to the fullest. God I pray that you give me a grateful heart and a humble heart to accept all your blessings may it come from the most surprising source. I know that you listen to all my cries and I know that I can count on your generous heart, teach me God to acknowledge your infinite goodness and receive your love and your grace even though there are times when I feel that I don't deserve it... help me realize that your love is infinite and your grace sufficient, that I need not do anything, I am your child and no matter how unworthy I may feel, FOR YOU I AM WORTHY. I AM WORTHY TO BE SAVED, WORTHY TO BE LOVED AND MOST OF ALL WORTHY TO BE BLESSED. Thank you Lord for all your blessings, thank you God for bestowing upon me the calm I need to pursue what needs to be pursued and for giving me the knowledge and the courage to proceed.

All the Glory to YOU, Oh LORD. Amen.

Friday, January 18, 2013

Coping With Death

Death is not an easy topic to breach...nor is it any easy thing to accept, more so if the person who died is someone you are very close to, may not exactly be a relative or a loved one, but someone you feel a certain connection to...

But death is an inevitable part of life, no matter how we try to avoid it, cheat it, sooner or later we will all come face to face with it... it can be sooner rather than later and most of use prays for it to be later but come it will.

I recently went to a wake, we rushed since the body was going to be brought to the province and if we didn't go then, we wouldn't have the chance to see the dead anymore... The family was grieving, you can see their eyes puffy from lack of sleep and perhaps even tears but it is good to see them in good spirits, laughing, reminiscing about the good ol' days they spent with their dead relative, remembering the good times but pausing every now and then to control emotions and try to accept the fact.

Being there, seeing how the family has coped with this death makes me hopeful... that people are still able to see the good in a bad situation. I don't see them blaming the Lord for this mishap, they are sad that he was taken away so young that he still had a lot of steam left in him so to speak, but they are accepting and looking forward to moving on...

I also learned of the family's story and learned who the people there were, it is weird how they are able to be civil and just accept that they are all there to pay respects to the dead when you realize that during "normal" times they would have been at each other's throats... but seeing them come together during this time is really a revelation

I learned a bit during this wake and I realized that indeed there is still good in this world and that good can still come out of the bad and that we should always choose to look at the bright side rather than wallow in the darkness...

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Focusing on the Positive

Yes, indeed it is not easy to focus on the positive when everyone else seems to be set on thinking the negative. 

I have decided to stop watching the news cause watching them seems to be so depressing when you see children abandoned, people killing each other for no apparent reason, people who are sick and the world just becoming so darned dark... 

Positivity is not such an easy feat to accomplish when people around you seems to not see the beauty of the world, even when they profess to believe that God is there to help out or that God is there to ensure that we are kept safe and that we can always trust God to get us through whatever tough times.

Yes, indeed in this negative world, it is a challenge to keep on thinking about the bright side, to continue, to struggle to become a bigger, better person that the guy who cut you off the line or the one who bumped into you while you cross each other on the corridor and didn't even bother to apologize or mumble an insincere apology.

But you know what I've learned? That despite this world being this negative, there is still something positive to look at...

That look of love your son gives you when you hand him a piece of candy or if you allow him a couple more minutes on the computer...

That sense of accomplishment when your daughter has her first period and she runs to you and confirms what she saw on her undies and the realization that she is growing up and growing up to be such a beautiful young lady...

That secret smile you share with your life partner when you know that the two of you has brought two wonderful things in this world (our two great children) 

That sense of completeness when you know that you're done with your day and that you did the best you can today and was able to complete a task that is both tiring yet satisfying. 

There are a lot things to one may see in this world that may take you to the dark side, one where you can choose to get mad, upset or frustrated that will leave you with a day that's very tiring yet unsatisfying. 

The operative word being "choose" - so we can choose to look at the negative side of things and see the end of our day as sad, frustrating and tiring or we can choose to look at the positive side and realize that we have  somehow accomplished something, we may not have finished the task on hand but something was done and tomorrow is another day. 

So let's focus on the good, on what we have accomplished, on what we can still do and look to God for guidance and help and look to ourselves to do the work needed. 

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Staying Positive

Or at the very least trying to...

This blog is supposed to help me channel my energies and convert it into something more positive in order to inspire, challenge and help individuals like myself who are struggling with life's hardships and try to continue looking up to God, trusting and believing that somehow amidst all these challenges there's a light at the end of the very dark tunnel and that prosperity, happiness and health is just waiting to be picked up by anyone who is keen and alert to see them.

It is indeed a challenge to keep up a brave front and keep smiling in the middle of a great storm.  But I am still keeping my optimism and believing in God's promise that I will be prosperous beyond my wildest dreams and that I can gain my ultimate happiness in the coming times.